Saturday, March 27, 2010

On Staying Together

Yes we stayed together our relationship lasted almost 3 yrs.During that time he had come to grips that my job was as important to me as football was to him The first time that ? told me he loved and cared for me I didn't fully understand how to take it Since I could remember, no one had ever spoken those words to me not my mom not my dad for that matter nor my brother or sister.I know my family loved me because it showed in the things that they had done for me but the words" I Love You"  were never spoken in our home so when someone tells you this for the first time in your life your not sure how to take it I understood that he loved me I understood the meaning of love but what I didn't understand was how can someone grow to love me I came from a different world then he did we both had two different life styles but he didn't let that stand in the way of how he cared for me.? always told me how different I was that I was special I never understood his reasons so I grew my own conclusion you see.. I was a virgin I never told him  Yes I said virgin you read right I just didn't know how to say those words to him "I'm a Virgin" so when the time did come for us to take our relationship up to the next level I still didn't tell him he found out on his own that night so I guess that's what made me different I don't know I'm just saying.That night was special not just because of what just happen it was the way he held me in his arms I knew I was right where I needed to be and that was in his world.During the time we dated none of my friends knew who I was dating they knew I was dating but just didn't know who I just didn't want them to come my way looking for handouts.When ? had to leave for away games he would always make sure I was OK meaning as far as bills but that didn't impress me I say this  because I was taking care of bills before he come along I didn't need him for that it was nice but wasn't a big deal that he took care of things before he went away