Regrets

July 21st will always be a day I will remember (always) this was the day I had terminated my pregnancy this was one of the most hardiest things I had to deal with Dee was very supportive but he had let it be known that if I go thought with this that he wasn't going to be there while I end our child's life that I understood but I just hoped that we had understood that this wasn't what I wanted I wanted him to understand that I had just become a new nurse and kids at that time wasn't in my plan.But he never really got over it cause as time went on I was reminded of what I did.Regrets is what I will always live with You have to understand that being a Peds Cardiologist Nurse at the Cleveland Clinic here in Cleveland Ohio had its share on me meaning every time I was around those kids/babies I thought about my baby wondering what she/he would have been what he/she may have looked like the thought of me not holding or never bonding with my baby There where times I had to run off to the bathroom just to pull it all together Dee had become very distance for awhile I didn't think we were going to make it it was as if he had become a stranger to me that someone had kidnapped the Dee I had falling in love with there were a lotof times where I would sleep alone because Dee found the quess room to more suitable to him at that time.As time went on Dee was becoming more of himself he did apologize and gave me reason why he was so distance I forgave him  We went on with our Life's. that following year I was faced with another decision I had make or should I say rethink.