Faith, that word didn't exist to me it wasn't in my vocabulary, it had no meaning to me I had erased that word from my life only because faith was no where around when I needed it to be. Faith let me down to many times when I held on to the little bit that I did have only to get disappointed I blamed faith for my silent cries when I gave clues that something wasn't right, I cried out so many times that my cries were nothing more then a whisper that had slowly faded away. Its been 4years now I'm able to look back on all that I can finally say I opened my heart up to faith I realize now that faith never left me I just needed a little strength to be strong so I can make it through the difficult days Carol "raindow6" Banks...Next episode coming soon....
Monday, June 17, 2013
Double sided mirror
Whenever I would look into a mirror I saw someone who wasn't me, I saw a stranger,she looked like me but the women I grew to became wasn't the girl my parents had raised too speak up for herself I saw a frightened lonely soul longing to be loved for the right reason and not for all the wrong reasons.I was tired of pretending to be someone who wasn't me I was tired of just being tired and carrying so much weight on my shoulders I had everyone fooled family, friends & even my coworkers They had no clue as to what went on,on the other side of my door boy if those walls could talk. There were many nights where I thought about ending it all then my heart wouldn't be in so much pain & I wouldn't be living a lie when people would ask if I were ok Shit, what the point of living when the love of my life had introduced me to his best friend "Smith & Wesson " and threatened if I leave him his best friend would take care of me All I could think about was Who's going to protect me know.....Carol "raindow6" Banks Next episode coming soon...
