Prayers, what are they are they failed hopes that things would get better are they failed attempts to make things right or is it something that we seem to ask to much of  There was a time in my life where I prayed all the time prayed for my life to be better prayed that Uncle Evil Villain would get help that he needed I knew he was sick not health sick but mental head sick cause who in their right mind would do harm on a child I often prayed for my parents to notice that something wasn't right with me that something wasn't right with their daughter I prayed to God that he would always be with me and keep me safe but my prayers never got answered I guess God was to busy with everyone else demands that he didn't have time to hear me or to listen to me or maybe he just didn't care was I a bad child to my parents was God punishing me There were so many times I often wondered why was I different why was I the chosen one different meaning did someone hold the winning ticket to rob me of my childhood chosen one meaning out of all the women in the world why did he have to have me a "child".

Promises, why do we make them but only turn around to break them knowing like hell we're never going to live up to them do we tend to say "I promise" to make our self look good my whole Life has been nothing but broken promises so I erase that word from my world it doesn't exist to me anymore Parents promise to always protect their young promise to always be there promise to always shelter us I look at it like this where were you your protection when he hurt me where were you when I needed you the most I couldn't find my way to you you promise to shelter me where were you when I needed you to wrap me in your arms and tell me that every things going to be OK now and wipe the tears away make the pain go away...