He Choose Me

I knew I had to do what ever it took to keep my relationship together and strong I knew deep in my heart that it wasn't Dee with the problem it was me Yes, I will be the first to say I have a problem.The problem was I didn't know how to love I didn't know how to be the women he needed me to be Growing up as a child my family never...never showed any type of emotions toward us when I say emotions there were no I Love You before going to bed there were no I Love You, see you late before going off to school there were no I Love You, with a kiss to let us know everything would be OK.There where no birthday kisses, that were followed by I Love You "baby wit all my heart" So when I got older I didn't know how to return the Love that he had given me Dee was very very patient with me I knew it was eating away at him.I never told him that certain things in my life that he had as a child I never had.But he managed to put up with me as long as he did because he had already known that I loved.The one thing that I did tell him was that he was the only one in my life that I had ever heard tell me that they Love me...

Hard times

There were times in my life where i just felt like giving up like I couldn't go on it felt like the world was against me felt like everything that I had worked for was taken away from me My relationship failed me my family failed me so whats left, There where time where I thought that ending my life was much better then being here on earth that if I died no one would miss me that all my problems would be over But I though about the people that love me the people that really loved me How would they take to me killing myself would they blame them self.My parents heart would be broken who would they be able to move on without me.Sister who would she turn to to talk to Brother he would have any boys to run away from me those were the small things that I thought about that made me rethink about my life that made me rethink what would I do if I didn't have them to love me the way they did.It was a special kind of love a special kind of love that no one would understand but us